The Right Season

I have a friend who often reminds me of this: where God has us is the best season of life for us right now. Even if that does constitute crutches and a big black boot, God has me here for a reason.

As mentioned in an earlier post, I'm often asked how I'm coping with this season of life.  I came up with a truthful answer that I readily answer with: I'd be lying if I said every day wasn't a struggle, but I'd also be lying if I said it's not a great season of life."

Being a very independent person, I find it hard to ask others for help.  My mom and sister are no longer here to hand me that book just across the room or carry a cup of water to my nightstand.  No longer do I have food served to me or my clothes washed.  My bed hasn't been made in a week (which is very bothersome), and my dishes rarely get done.

As hard as it was to live with my family in my tiny apartment, I miss them more than ever.  The days of coming home to a loved one on the couch and eating breakfast and dinner together are over.

It's not a time of self-pity, though.  I promise.  I've found other ways to keep busy, ways that will strengthen my reliance on Christ. Ways that have grown me exponentially.  Instead of wasting time on Facebook or Twitter, I find myself watching online sermons by Perry Noble from Newspring Church over and over.  His sermons encourage me to solely channel my thoughts on furthering the Kingdom of Christ.

I'm learning that it's okay to rely on others for help and that slowing down is normal.  Slowing my life down is all I really needed to realize how crazy life had gotten.  I now have time to grab coffee with others (of course, they have to drive me...), and I find that I not only have time to read my assigned* chapters in scripture each day, but I have time to read more.  I want to read more.  It's addictive.  It gets me through the long afternoons and nights.

This season of life is truly a difficult one, but I'm more than thankful for it.



*I'm in a Core Group where we meet once a week to pray, fellowship and read through the entire bible. We are using a plan provided by our church which 'assigns' chapters for each day.